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Johanna De Silentio, “Mental Illness: Expectations Vs. Reality” (via walkermargaret)
Expectation: Get to be happy because you don’t realize you are crazy.
Reality: Have to deal with knowing you are crazy and be forever unsure if the information your brain is giving you is sound.
Expectation: Get to live in a mental ward and be coddled forever, don’t have to have responsibilities, get to hook up with cute orderlies [re: Girl Interupted], generally live a sheltered and carefree existence.
Reality: Can’t afford therapy/much less living somewhere coddled full time. Have to deal with having a mental illness on top of all the other responsibilities you have in your life.
Expectation: Get lots of cool pills.
Reality: Feel stupid about having to take a pill everyday for the rest of your life. Have people tell you you are addicted to sedatives because you pop an Ativan when you’re supposed to.
Expectation: Become a cool artist like Anne Sexton or Sylvia Plath.
Reality: Feel unable to concentrate on your art or too insecure to show it to anyone.
Expectation: End mental illness after a movie montage of therapy, a makeover and deep realizations.
Reality: Mental illness isn’t in your life to serve a story arc any more than getting the flu.
50 questions, 50 ways to get to know me.
| 1: | What would you name your future daughter? |
| 2: | Do you miss anyone? |
| 3: | What if I told you that you were pretty? |
| 4: | Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? |
| 5: | What are you looking forward to in the next week? |
| 6: | Did you go out or stay in last night? |
| 7: | How late did you stay up last night? |
| 8: | Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? |
| 9: | What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? |
| 10: | Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? |
| 11: | Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? |
| 12: | Have you pretended to like someone? |
| 13: | Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? |
| 14: | Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? |
| 15: | Is it hard for you to get over someone? |
| 16: | Think back five months ago, were you single? |
| 17: | Have you ever cried from being so mad? |
| 18: | Hold hands with anyone this week? |
| 19: | Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? |
| 20: | Who did you last see in person? |
| 21: | What is the last thing you said out lot? |
| 22: | Have you kissed three or more people in one night? |
| 23: | Have you ever been to Paris? |
| 24: | Are you good at hiding your feelings? |
| 25: | Do you use chap stick? |
| 26: | Who did you last share a bed with? |
| 27: | Are you listening to music right now? |
| 28: | What is something you currently want right now? |
| 29: | Were your last three kisses from the same person? |
| 30: | How is your heart lately? |
| 31: | Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? |
| 32: | When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? |
| 33: | What do people call you? |
| 34: | Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? |
| 35: | Are there any stressful situations in your life? |
| 36: | What are you listening to right now? |
| 37: | What is wrong with you right now? |
| 38: | Love really is a beautiful thing huh? |
| 39: | Do you make wishes at 11:11? |
| 40: | What is on your wrists right now? |
| 41: | Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? |
| 42: | Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? |
| 43: | Have you ever regretted kissing someone? |
| 44: | Have you hugged someone within the last week? |
| 45: | Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? |
| 46: | What were you doing at midnight last night? |
| 47: | Do you miss the way things were six months ago? |
| 48: | Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? |
| 49: | Have you ever been to New York? |
| 50: | Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? |
